Saturday, July 20, 2019

A value from finisihing my study




Halloo everyone,
How’s life?

I hope you always fine and happy wherever you stay.
Yappps, today I want to share you my story when I graduated from my college. It’s such a happy time. But, I had to manage my emotion, tried to not feel too happy when I get something great and not feel too sad when a thing has not run well. I had to remember everything is temporary. Is it right? Yes, you have to say right. Ok.  J

Guys,, I was happy i have finished my study. However, there is a long process to finish it. I have to through 8 semesters and face the barriers or distractions during my study. You have to know that i got the SKL (surat keterangan kelulusan or the legal letter that I finished my study) when I in 9 semester. Consequently, I should pay the tuition in 9 semesters.  It’s oke. My parent always supports me, but I felt so disappointed with myself. I forgot about it and kept going.

Thank God, I have through this amazing journey. I cannot imagine what a greater Allah is. He helps me, every step of my life, I can’t believe 4 years finished. I could face every single problem, I could adapt to the new atmosphere, I could understand well with the thing I don’t know before.  Oh Allah, you are so kind, you are my shine, and my greater. Alhamdulillah for everything.

Well, I just tell you that before I choose  English major, I don’t have enough knowledge or experience in studying English major. I just love English, and I am willing to learn. Firstly, when the class was started, I felt nervous, doubted, and frightened. I was afraid to say anything when my lecturer asked me, I cannot say anything in English, just “YES and NO.” No no no, I am kidding. I just confused how to speak English. I was silenced, and silenced. Just felt like shock culture (Entering English class). I am from the suburban and most of my friend from the urban of Indonesia.  That is why I realized my friend more skillfull than me.

Every day, I tried to adapt the new atmosphere, tried to find some motivations, did not afraid to ask anything when I confused, knowing my self deep, knowing people around me, whether in the class or outside class related with English . Guess what? Time to time, it proved that I started to comfort with my class, so I enjoyed the class, got new encouragement, got new friends, a new perspective of life. Those were things that make me feel alive, and  I didn’t want to give up in English.

Secondly, in the first semester, my score was very bad. It was because I had no ways to apply the effective study. my lecturer asked me, and I said honestly. Then, I start to trace the effective ways to improve my English. Through the youtube channels, reading a book, watching the film or news, visiting a certain website, talking to people, and so on. I did all those ways. It was because I like English and I am willing to learn, I never to stop finding ways to improve my English.

Sometimes I felt so stress it was because I compared my English with my friends who good in English. However, I realized soon that I am different with my friends, I had to struggle more than they did. I have to love my self more than others love to, love myself means do not compare with others. Just the way I am. I have to force myself being work hard and stay focus on my progress, not others progress. That’s my power to keep going on.

I firmly believe that when I give big effort and dua on my goals, as soon as possible I will get the greater result of my sacrifice. I believe God doesn’t sleep, so He always watches mee, keeps accompany me in this process. That is why I do not feel alone when I am struggling alone. There is Allah beside me, and always. I believe Allah will give me a way how to solve my problem, especially in my academic problem when I never give up to find the solution and facing it gently. I trust my self and always trust.

Briefly story, at the end of my semester I aware that my English improve and I had finished the examination. I  got the degree S.PD, and yay, alhamdulillah Allah always give us the right time. In this years, I finished my study. I enjoyed my whole study process. I love the process, and you have to guys.

Guys, don’t ever underestimate yourself in something that you never study yet. You have to struggle harder than your friend, you have to willing to learn, read, watch, even listen to everything or everyone who supports you and helps you grow the next level. Don’t worry about the future when you today is struggling for something you want. Don’t worry about people judgment when you settled down. You must keep going on. Positive mind.

Do not forget to involve Allah in everything you struggle on. Just believe, Allah hears you, and watch your effort. Be kind to everyone, do not compare yourself. It because we are different. We have something special on ourselves. I believe it and you have to. Love your progress, and stay humble.  If I can through this process, I believe you too.







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